this ones kinda like a twitlonger

I always liked the idea of posting "thoughts" and random stuff to twitter, and i also very much like how the japanese use it, but for some things (thoughts) its not enough.

last time i did any sorta diary thing was back in like second grade, but i didn't have much to write there

so heres something... I feel like if i have a space to write my thoughts out i can at least ease the weight those have on my mental

or at least i like to think that. ofc i don't want this to turn against me either but its too many words i have backed up, and no outlet for it

maybe to someone this (or I) will be interesting enough to read, in either case thank you

Not trying to give a lecture as if i knew more, nothing hard unless i specifically write it out

• 25 sept 5 - I wish I had someone who i could talk talk with, not just sending videos and memes back n forth. or something. Anyways ive been doing okay, went to my uni's opening ceremony thing, but it was all just yap. I also started watching more anime, which is great as its a comfy medium but its very time consuming and i don't want to "overdo" it. Getting more and more into future riddim, i wanna make some later, perhaps into a collab i've got going on.... kinda... but oh well, at least that one started not just by my efforts so i'm happy about that! I really shouldn't let myself spiral into bad thoughts tho. Also I'll have to do something about my storage on my pc. I am running out!!! I should have something collecting dust but eh, too lazy to do that and i often just forget about it, BUT that will change! I gotta take myself a bit more seriously with things i wanna do, and have to do, I wanna make lists for things I want to and have to do, and use that as a diving board to escape the death loop that is online consumable media. I had something more in mind but forgor. With that, listen to goretrance 7,thank you and good night! I'll watch some more anime before zleep tho
• 25 sept 4 - Missed one yesterday, it was a wild ride. maybe i just needed to talk with someone, or im not sure. today's still nowhere near the end (2:18) but i wanted to write something. i have some ideas for the future as of now, apart from irl stuff i wanna start doing dubstep now; i've been listening to more and more recently again. I'll get around to doing that sometime. I wonder if neocities has some sort of api or anything. Out for now :>
• 25 aug sept 2 - maybe it was a thirst for writing that i wanted and not necessarily to let my thoughts out as i already feel a bit better, even with just writing the header out, anyways today i went and enrolled (?) into uni, got my papers checked and im officially a uni student. went with an old classmate whos going there as well, we had a decent time even tho I really don't resonate with him on a deeper level. but oh well i got carried away like usual as if we were friends friends. ever since i got home tho ive been playing dead. ableton crashed on me, which isn't promising but at the same time gives me more reason to try bitwig. I know i wanted to do some things but i just... eeeh. the most tempting rn is watching some anime but im not even sure about that. I should lock away every scrollable social platform actually. Good night and thank you for the read <3